Monday, July 22, 2013

An Open (And Unsent) Letter to My Classmates

After spending four years with a group of people, I've come to the harsh reality that I might not see many, if any, ever again. And among the ~40 people in my program, a lot of them I think I'll genuinely miss getting to be around. The times when these people have reached out to me with bits of encouragement and helped me see my own strengths have really made an impact on me. I found myself thinking, "Wouldn't it be great if I could do the same thing in return?" And while it may take some work to build up that kind of courage, I at least thought that it deserves to be written down. Who knows. Maybe I'll find the strength sooner than later. No one minds a compliment, right? Especially from someone they might not see again. But I digress...

Danielle - You struggled in spots, but you fought through it and worked hard. I have lots of respect for you. Also, you have the most incredible hair I've ever seen. Seriously, I thought that was the stuff of magazine photo shoots, and not every day at art school. And it meant a lot to me that you'd send me songs you'd think I'd dig.

Matt - I loved the way your face lit up when you laughed. You have a good eye for technology and make some well-detailed, tight work.

Alyssa - You have such a sweet demeanor. I was blown away at how you came into your own during third year, and I'm wildly jealous of your touch for handwritten typography. Thanks for saying hello to me in the cheerful and warm way you do. It felt good to talk to you, including that one time at that one party where we talked about religion, philosophy and relationships. I'm glad I had someone to listen to Christmas music with on those late, cold, December nights in the studio.

Marta - I'm impressed by your confidence and how easy it was for you to laugh out loud.

Kate - I admire your good nature, intelligence and articulate...ness. You have a pretty good sense of humour to boot, and certain flavour nerdiness that was unfortunately lacking in most of our other classmates.

Gail - You're a sweet soul, and I envy your understanding/welcoming attitude. I admire your determination, not just with the coursework but also the cultural mountain you had to climb. It was cool seeing your dad at graduation, especially knowing your deep personal history you had shared with us all. You wore your heart on your sleeve, and I like that. You strike me as being very trustworthy.

Justine - You're always striving to push your concept farther and harder, and it shows in your work. I'm jealous of your ability to concentrate on what's important and strive for excellence.

Liz - It seemed like you had a rough go of things over the last four years, but you never said a negative word about anyone. I hope things work out for you, wherever life takes you.

Nikki - You laugh and smile a lot. You're an uplifting person to have around.

Laura S - I can tell that you were always analyzing and thinking about things behind your gentle presence. I appreciate your work and your insights.

Mike K - You can be kinda quiet and shy, but you should know that you're a solid guy to be around.

Kristin - You're a sincere person, and give off a really welcoming and safe aura. Thanks for welcoming me into your home for that project we worked on as partners - I really enjoyed that time spent together. Thanks for saying kind words to me when I needed it. Trust yourself and you'll go places - you've got some good skill and make some solid stuff. I liked being around you. Your daughter is one very lucky girl to have you.

Edwin - Man, I'm SO glad we got to be wingmen in New York for a while. I had lots of fun, and you're a positive, meek and patient guy. I like that combination and see qualities in you that I want to have. And going to school when you have a family at home to care of? Double respect.

Wes - I was (and still am) continually blown away by your infallible self-confidence.

Hannah - I can't put my finger on it, but you're a really cool person. Sincere and upbeat, and not afraid to do your own thing. I really don't know what it is, but I always appreciated your presence.

Rhannon - You have a great smile, and it seems like you're a really aware of other's moods. You're a sensitive person, but have a mature sense of when to act on it or not.

Fiona - You're mature and thoughtful, and have one hell of a great laugh. Thanks for inviting all(!!) of us into your home.

Natalie - It was fun hanging out (and doing nothing) in the empty drop-in tutoring sessions, and rather amusing to watch you get hit on by approximately every dude that came through the door. I liked that you weren't afraid to laugh. Even to the worst of my jokes or anecdotes when we were trying not to die of boredom.

Sara K - It seemed like you always had a smile on your face, and didn't hesitate to offer up words of encouragement/reinforcement.

Jun - Man, your background is so inspiring, I feel like someday I'll read all about it in a book. I don't think I have the guts to travel the long path that you did.

Kristy - It seems like you became pretty self confident over the last year, to the point of maybe becoming too self confident. If that's what makes you happy, though, who am I to object? But underneath everything, I know there's someone there that's sensitive and intelligent.

Ryder - You have enormous amounts of passion and talent, but you remain so soft spoken and meek. You have a commendable outlook.

Mike S - Man... Get your life together. Seriously. Man up and commit to something. Anything. When you do, great things are gunna happen. When you ain't so mopey people (myself included) like to be around you, and you have some good skill under your belt. You're a good man. I don't care what they say about you.

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Maria - In addition to your mountains of multiple raw talents, I like how you're always trying to look at the bigger picture and pursuing something that's good on a truly substantial level. You work hard, and it's pretty crazy to see you find your passion and be willing to devote more years (and years abroad at that) to further the skills you need that will let you form your own voice for improving society. It's a commendable pursuit. I like your intelligence, honesty and how you're an incredibly driven person with a can-do attitude. I think you'll go places. You know, aside from just Scotland.

Dylan M - Ah, sir, you feel like a kindred spirit, and I feel really bad that it took until fourth year to figure that out. At the same time, I'm glad we got to work on those two projects together in the last year. You're a man of honesty, sincerity, unshakable integrity, and you have no idea how much of a relief it was to find another introspective soul in the class. I'm really glad that you were able to stick it out through the whole program and that you found your passion - I have no doubt you're headed for big things. But I'll remember you most for your incredible intellect, sincere demeanor, and dare I say, honour. I look up to and envy you in more than one way, and hope that I can be even a fraction of the person you are. And as much as I wished our paths could have crossed more often, I can only hope that they will do so again in the future.

Dylan S - Man, you told me that you wouldn't have made it through without me, but I almost wonder if it was actually the other way around. Do you realize how polar opposite we are as personalities? And yet we somehow gravitated towards eachother and stayed there for a long time. Thank you, sir, for making me laugh and planting in me a new appreciation for music. While I can't stand your work ethic, I truly do admire your insane skill and ability to make the people around you feel good. Jamming in the studio(s), abandoned or not, will forever be cherished memories, and the highlight of the whole four years. I'm glad I had you to watch my back for a time. And while I think we're drifting in very different directions and our plans for a shared studio may never materialize... You already left your mark and permanently changed who I am, and for the better. I'll miss you, and I know you'll find yourself washing up on the shore of Big Things. Leave some room on your coat tails for me, eh?

Some of these people I maybe had one or two conversations with ever, some I spoke with everyday, and then the rest fill out the entire spectrum between. Some people leave more of an impact than others, and I tried to mention everyone that did just that. Most of the people I mentioned were no less good people. There were few other people, though, that remind me of the words "If you can't say anything nice." But those people are few, and as a whole my class consisted of damn fine people that I felt lucky to study with and know. I hope you all go out to tackle the neck of the world with your fangs out, and that you'll all find your own little slice of heaven in this big ol' mess. Safe travels,
-Cril

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night


Imagine Dragons - It's Time (Acoustic)

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